What's this life meant for? (OPEN!)

[silverdreams]

~Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home~



The world was a green blur around her as Romey pushed harder and harder, flying over logs with ease and following the trail as if she knew it by heart. Finally the trail opened into a small richly vegetated canyon, a beautiful waterfall filling a crytal blue pool.

Ella slid out of the saddle and walked to the waters edge, she sat with her elbows on her knees. The full weight of the last weeks events set in on her and before she could stop herself the sobs overtook her and tears streamed down her face. no! she yelled at herself in her mind.

She had to do something to get her mind off everything that threatened to push her over the egde. She rose suddenly and pulled off her boots and socks, then slipped out of her breeches, and pulled off the black polo shirt she wore. She dove gracefully into the fresh blue water, letting the chill take away any thoughts that stuck around in her head.

She stayed under as long as she could, thinking for a moment what is was like for her parents to just stop breathing. Then when she felt like she couldnt take it anymore she breached the surface of the water and gasped for air. She stretched her body out and floated on the surface, content to stay there for days.....

[aerostarr »-♥->]

today never happened.

Poor Chris. Here he was, just walking along in his, 'Look at me, I'm the guy from England' mindset, and all of a sudden, he stumbled along on this girl floating in the lake without many clothes on. Immediately feeling as if he'd trespassed on her, he backed away, averting his eyes. 'Ah, sorry. Sorry. I'll just leave. Sorry.' He kept saying. Awww. How sweet was he? Talking in his British accent and apologizing. He was cute without even trying.

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[silverdreams]

~Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home~



Ella blushed, sinking to her chin in the water and covering herself by crossing her arms a bit. But she wouldnt exactly hate to have company, it would be expecially easy to talk to somebody who didnt know a thing about you...or at least thats what she always thought. Plus, the way she was feeling now she didnt exactly trust herself to be alone, too much had gone on and her mind was playing games with her.

" Uh no, you dont have to go, just uh....just turn around for a minute " she said quickly as she swam towards the shore. She rose from the water and pulled on her shirt and breeches, she pulled her blonde strands back into a wet pony. " Ok, you can turn around...." she said " Im ella " once he had turned around.

[aerostarr »-♥->]

today never happened.

Chris stayed upon her direction despite his embarassment, turning around as she asked. He was blushing bright red, but he managed to turn it down by the time he turned around. 'Nice to meet you, Ella.' He smiled softly toward the girl, moving forward awkwardly to stand there, looking around. 'I'm Chris Hudson...' He said, continuing to smile. Even if the moment had been strange, she was very, very pretty. 'Well... That was awkward, huh?' He said with a laugh. 'What were you doing anyway?' He smirked, playfully teasing her.

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[silverdreams]

~Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home~


Ella bit her lip, she didnt even want to remember what happened, let alone talk about it with someone else, so she said " I was just thinking. It's really quiet and relaxing out here, so it's really easy to just sit and think " she said, not lying but just dodging around the truth.

Wow, this kid was cute, she finally realized now that she was dressed and not potentially drowning herself. And his accent! Anygirl would give just about everything she owned just to we wooed by a guy with a European accent.

Her mind started buzzing again thoughts, memories, feelings...she looked around desperatly. Before she could even think about what see was doing, she leaned forward and let her soft pink lips meet his....please let me forget she begged her mind. Her eyes closed and she wrapped her arms around him....

[aerostarr »-♥->]

today never happened.

Things were going all too quickly. He had barely even learned this girl's name, and now he was kissing her. They had barely exchanged names. But the atmosphere pushed him into it, and he wasn't even thinking about it before he was kissing her back. But he pulled away suddenly, the only reason being 'What I'm doing is wrong.' crossed through his mind. And it was true. He shouldn't have done what he'd just done. He gave her a slight smile as he pulled away in apology, but continued to speak. 'I'm sorry, I don't know what made me do that...' He whispered, but his voice trailed off, compelled to kiss her again and he leaned forward, his lips soft on those of a stranger he really didn't know. But he wanted to get to know her. He was so foolish. So foolishly cute and sweet and trusting. His head was saying 'no, no no', but he couldn't hear over his heart screaming 'yes, yes, yes.'

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[silverdreams]

~Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home~

Ella leaned into him again as he kissed her back, after that moment of doubt. Her fingers ran through his hair and down his cheek, she soaked up every bit of affection that she was getting. It was affection that she couldnt even remember the last time she got any remotely close to it...but it still didnt feel right, it was strange meaningless affection. She didnt even know this guy and she was so desperate for something that she flung herself at him.

She pulled herself away, tears began to roll down her cheeks as she turned away, facing the lake once more. " I'm sorry...i shouldn't have.. " she choked out, she felt embarassed and she felt like she just threw herself around like a hooker. She put her hand to her face, like she was hiding her shame. What a nice impression on the first person i meet coming here... she thought to herself.

[aerostarr »-♥->]

today never happened.

Chris' eyes followed her as she turned away, leaving him feeling very confused. He took a step forward to wrap his arms around her from behind, letting his head rest near her ear over her shoulder. 'Don't cry...' He whispered sweetly, letting one hand come up to stroke her hair. 'What's wrong?' Chris continued to murmer into her ear in that adorably cute British accent.

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[silverdreams]

~Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home~


Ella relaxed as his arms wrapped around her, and chills went down her spine as he whispered in ear. She wiped away the tears with he back of her hand and turned to face, a bashful look on her face. "It's just....i feel like im just throwing myself at you. I mean we just met, aren't we going a little fast?" she questioned him.

Although every inch of her heart yearned for care, compassion, and love, her mind could not get over the fact that they had just met and shared most of the two minutes they had known each other attached at the lips. It was all so mind boggling and confusing for her to be at such differnences in her mind. Why does this have to be confusing and complicated? she asked herself.

[aerostarr »-♥->]

today never happened.

Chris smiled gently down toward her. 'I didn't really take that into account...' He smirked playfully. 'I'm going to try to be nice to a girl who seems to be very upset if she's just kissed me.' He said softly, one hand moving from her shoulder to run his fingers through a strand of her hair.

'And we might not know each other all that well now, but we can get there...' He said, taking her hand, pulling her to sit down on the lakeside shore. 'Come on. Now, we'll get to know each other.' He grinned as if the problem was that easy to fix. So adorably cute and naive. 'You just got here, I'm guessing? Rough times in the past?' He said, continuing to grin with that calm, sweet smile.

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[silverdreams]

~Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home~


Ella took his hand and sat down next to him, listening carefully to the words that he spoke. It seemed as much as she tried to escape the pain of her past, she just could not get away from its pain. She begged tears not to well up in her eyes as she spoke. " Yeah, i just got here...and yes, rough times " she said, not wanting just yet to add any details. Although you could hardly call it the past, it seemed like just hours ago she had gotten the call. But what seemed like hours were really weeks. It had taken two weeks to settle all the affairs, it had seemed that she was walking around in a day dream for those two weeks.

She looked up from her thoughts, realizing she had trailed off in her own mind and must look foolish just sitting there silently. She looked into his eyes and saw the kindness and sincerity, at that moment she kind of opened herself up to him. Even though she could not talk now about her past, she knew that he was somebody that she could talk to and he would listen, not just pretend to listen, but really listen. " What about you? Tell me about yourself...besides the fact that you have the worlds cutest smile and the accent to match " she said with a grin....probably her first real smile in weeks.

[aerostarr »-♥->]

it just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride
everything, everything will be just fine;; everything, everything will be alright

Chris smiled down at her, letting go of her hand so he could wrap his arms around her torso, moving to sit next to her, letting her head rest on his chest. What a sweetie. 'Oh, Ella. You shouldn't worry about the past. You can't change it, and thinking about it just takes another moment away from the future.' He murmered in her ear, running his fingers through his hair, kissing her forehead gently. He apparently had no problem connecting with this girl. It might have been harder if that moment of their first kiss hadn't been replaying in his head again and again...

He grinned down at her as she spoke. That's it...' He thought as she moved on from the painful subject ... to talk about him. Well, not the best choice of subject, because he didn't want to sound conceited, but hey, he was a guy. He wasn't supposed to be perfect. 'You think so?' He grinned. 'I came here from England a few years ago. Hence, the cute accent.' He laughed, playfully nudging her. 'I had a girlfriend, Lindsay, but she's gone now ... I got drunk once when she broke up with me and I guess that made her mad...' He sighed, eyes wandering to the lake. 'But hey, that doesn't matter.' He smirked. 'I'm the guy that said not to linger on the past, so ... I'll try not to be hypocritical.' He laughed gently, kissing her on the cheek. His eyes met hers as he pulled away, and his heart jolted. Wow. He hadn't even felt this connected to Lindsay when she was his. 'Now, Miss Ella ...' He smiled gently, brown eyes meeting hers, causing his heart to jump again. 'Are...are you really interested in me? I mean, I wouldn't want to scare you ... because I'm starting to get the feeling that one day I might really like you...' He grinned, staying away from the words 'love you'. He knew that would really be going too fast. Especially if she seemed to be on the emotional edge right now, as he liked to call it. Still, how could any girl say not to this ahhhhh-dorable British boy? Especially when he was whispering things like that in their ear? Exactly. =]]

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[silverdreams]

~Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home~

Ella nodded seriously and listened as he told her a story, sos he had had hard times in his past too. He had killed his pains with alcohol, sounded like something Ella herself had done not too long ago. Ella nodded as he finished his story knowing exactly how he felt, she felt like she was had been abandoned by all the people in her life at one point and it drove her half mad in a drunked fury....but that was the past as Chris continued to tell her.

She smiled shyly as he spoke, though it was merely a front because Ella was never shy...or was she? She smiled up at him as he finished, raising her brows a bit into a coc.ky sort of look. " Well, lets just see how it goes...and we will go from there " she said looking all over his face, trying to avoid the one spot she couldnt stop thinking about...his lips. But again her impulse got the best of her and she leaned forward, her lips meeting his. But this time it wasnt rushed and lustful, it was slow and passionate...letting her lips answer better the question he just asked her.