raindrops flowing down my window..

[aerostarr »-♥->]

look, i'm sure everything will be worked out eventually. and i'll find somebody outside of this game to run the next show, if you trust them. i figured it would be alright to delete that rule altogether since that's the way things work on equine dreams and i want a high rate of activity in the shows. whatever you want...and it's okay to bring your problems to us, just don't let the anger come along.

[.:x:.A.rtemis.:x:.]

OOC: I'm not saying that you don't have a hard life, I hardly know anyone that doesn't. My fathers in Iraq, two of my three brothers are also in Iraq, my mother is going to divorce my father whenever he comes back into the country and I was abused from the age of 3 to 13 by my two brothers that are now in Iraq. My other brother graduated while I was young so I never really expierced love for any kind of family except for my little sister and my parents(who I'm extremely mad at for hurting each other the way they are) anyways the point is, life sucks. Anyone who doesn't realize that is either blind or just plain stupid. Everyone has problems in life, and writing is a good way to vent your anger, I always put a piece of myself into my charries but I don't get carried away. You have to know the limit. If someones charrie has a problem with your charrie, it doesn't mean they don't like you as a person. The only reason Tex is mean to your charries is because he's my hot-head, reckless, rude ego. If your charries and him fight, it doesn't matter because it just adds drama, which you need in any RP game...Do you see what I'm getting at? It's good that you care enough about writing and you put your emotions and a piece of you into it, but don't be offended when the charries fight and don't take it out on DW. RP games are about drama, that's what their for, your creating a life for characters, and no matter where you are, in real life or on a game, there's gonna be drama, it's the way life is...Now if we can all just get along and enjoy RPing together then it'd make the game more enjoyable, and truly, isn't that what its for? To be fun? Of course, otherwise it would be called role-PLAYING, so lets all just relax and have fun....alright?

[aerostarr »-♥->]

i feel so left out of this conversation...life's really good for me, at least. my characters all have a bad history so that i can try and connect with the people that do have crappy lives. it helps...some. i will talk to you guys though, if you ever have problems outside of the game.

[.:x:.A.rtemis.:x:.]

thats so sweet! I don't ever really have anyone to talk too cause all my friends at school have their own problems and I don't like to complain about my problems to other people, I mean, all my problems are in the past, I just turned 16 and I have learned to stand up for myself and make my own decisions, sometimes though I do get overwhelmed because the only one I can tell my problems to is my filly and my heifer, at first I used to tell my little sister, but I stopped because she didn't deserve it. So far I think I've done a good job from sheltering her from my brothers and my parents, whenever they all start fighting I'll take her down to the barn to ride the horses or something else like that. At first it was really hard, but I've learned to live with it, life goes on. As long as I look at it from a detached point of view, then it doesn't bother me. I mean, who hasn't gone through what I've been through, who hasn't been through worst? It's not like my life is so bad, I mean, I do have a horse, and I'm starting my own cattle herd. Soon I'll be off to college to become a vet then I'll truly put all this behind me. I've learned that what I've been through doesn't define who I am, my writing and my horses and what I love define what I am and who I am too be, I won't let anything else change that.

[laurenz]

That's a really good way to explain it, Artemis. Kansas, I know your history. I've known you for a long time. I've also noticed that whenever you're in a bad mood, you seem to blame it on your hard life. I understand that it's hard. I was mentally abused(that is actually worse than physical abuse, im not saying im against anyone though) and I do know what it's like. I know my charrie Katie is being mean to your charries but, that's just the way it is. You said NR was like real life, right? Well, I'm helping out with that. That's what happens in real life, not everything is happy happy all the time. Now, can we get back to rping?

[.:x:.A.rtemis.:x:.]

Yeah, emotional abuse is pretty bad in it's own way, I mean, you don't hide it like you do physical abuse, and sometimes it can take years for you to even know how it has affected you, but it always shows up, always. I was always small when I was young, but when I quit athletics, I gained 15 pounds, bringing me up to about 120 pounds as a 15 year old, but, my brothers and boyfriend kept calling me fat whenever they got mad at me, before long, I began to believe it, so I only ate dinner everyday, and then I only ate vegetables. I became anorexic until my mom threatened to put me in the hospital, the one thing that scared me more than being fat was hospitals, so I snapped out of it eventually, and I have never gone back. I grew up early, thus that's how Colt was developed, but not in the same way. I don't go to parties, I don't ever drink, I rarely cuss, I don't do drugs. I concentrait on my homework and my animals, because nothing else matters to me anymore.

[aerostarr »-♥->]

well, i hope you don't think you're fat. i'm 13 and i weigh 137 or so pounds already...but that could come from the fact that i'm 5'8''...haha. very tall for my age. taller than most of the guys, still.

[.:x:.A.rtemis.:x:.]

Oh, I'm 140 something now, and i'm only 5'5", lol, I don't really care about my weight anymore, as long as I;m healthy, which my doctor says I am, then I'm happy. ;D

[laurenz]

I'm sure you're not fat. and if you ever wanna talk, artemis, i'm here<3.

[.:x:.A.rtemis.:x:.]

Kool, thankies!!! ;D

[pksgirl]

Okay why does everyone freak out on me after i apoligized?Ive been in like an unbreakable depression for like two weeks but im good now.and as far as the weight thing,muscle ways more than fat.My Riding instructor is only slightly taller then me and has basically the same build but theres twenty punds+ diffrence between our weight...just because she works more.And me and my best friend are thesame build basicallyonly im shorter and my weights higher..b/c I work more.So dont feel bad about your weight ever,b/c seriously stick people arent better then you.I could be considered on the stick side..most people wont beileve my weight but it was 104 a week ago...now its 101 since its soccer season so ive lost weight.Yea..thats about it.